why things happen

i totally forgot that this blog exits, yeah i know i have a blog here at blogger but i forgot my name...
I thank the celestial beings out there coz i didnt logout from my blog before...

I was looking at this blog, then i remembered that i had one too, this one, itstartedwithaclick...

after i read my forgotten blog's title and some of the articles (there are only 2 entries here), something really clicked in my mind, i remembered how observant and imaginative i am before,

now im just a boring person (somehow creative if compared with other boring persons) im almost being engulfed by the system that i detest the most which is linear thinking, i miss the curvy-linear me...

my scholaryly paper works submitted to my professors reflect this, i lack my previous pizzaz that i had three years ago, the 17 year old me?

I often have debates with my inner self, i think of something then i dismiss that thought because i think of it as stupid or as far fetched...

good thing i saw this page of mine, this didnt happen by chance, nothing happens by chance...